Here I sit at my desk drinking my matcha latte in this beautiful mug given to me by my dear friend and mentor, Anjali. This is my life's mission. This is the journey I am on. 'Making a life worth loving/living'. For not too long ago, under immense pressure and pain, I attempted to end my life. It's been quite the journey, both incredibly challenging and miraculously amazing, to rebuild my life.This is the gift and the opportunity I am privileged to have. I was literally 'saved' and now I get to live. The big questions have been: How do I live my life? How do I make my life one worth loving/living? How do I make sure I don't fall back and get to the place where I would want to end my life again? Through a lot of exploring, digging, fighting, crying and experimenting, with a lot of help and support from loved ones and professionals I can finally say that I am well on my way. I know who I am, I know what's important to me, I have faced many of my inner demons and transformed them into my allies. I have become a master of transformation. I have transformed myself and my life over and over again and continue to do so - at every stumble or each moment of resistance I persevere and I come back to my heart and my vision and continue to cultivate myself as a loving, compassionate, grateful, courageous, conscious being. I have awoken my warrior spirit, I have connected with my deepest soul's calling and I choose to live and create a life that call's me into my fullest being. For this is my life, it is my responsibility and it truly is a blessing to be alive, I am a blessing. I am worthy and I know I make a difference. For this was my biggest learning from my suicide attempt; my actions and my choices have a huge impact on others and it's totally up to me what that impact will be. I now choose to make a positive difference and do what I can to contribute to the vision I have for myself and the world. My vision is that we all have the means and ability to love, appreciate and enjoy ourselves, life and others. Obviously this is not a solo journey. This requires everyone's participation and willingness. This is why my partner calls me 'an extreme idealist'. There was a time when I was afraid and embarrassed of my ideals but now I am proud of them. They give me hope and purpose. We need visions and visionaries to inspire us, to call us into being and most importantly we need actions to make them happen. Who's willing to join me on this mission? What are you doing to create your own life worth loving? I would love to know. Please share. Blessings on your journey.
In loving service,
My commitment is to not hold back and to share boldly from my heart to yours. May you be inspired to find your own voice and express what's in your own heart...